floodgates

open the floodgates
whatever you've got
hit me with your lowest blow
i'll take anything you can throw
until you're out of ammunition
this will be my retribution
because i am the strong one
the brave one
and if i cave we all cave
if i break we all break
and it doesn't matter that i already have
if you still see me as the same.
and so, you see, i must be selfless
though i am selfish and alone
i must be brave though my cells scream run down to my bones
i pretend i don't deserve every wound you open.